And God delivered his promise! Our God is a good God and He is true to the promises He made in the Bible...
“Listen to me, you who pursue righteousness and who seek the Lord: Look to the rock from which you were cut and to the quarry from which you were hewn; look to Abraham, your father, and to Sarah, who gave you birth. When I called him he was only one man, and I blessed him and made him many. The Lord will surely comfort Zion and will look with compassion on all her ruins; he will make her deserts like Eden, her wastelands like the garden of the Lord, Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the sound of singing."
Grabe, Naiiyak ako as I'm writing this entry. I have been dreaming of this day that I will write this post. Finally, the time came. It came in His perfect time.
I waited on The Lord and it honestly felt like an eternity. There were times that I questioned myself. Kulang ba faith ko? When I felt weak, I kept reading Psalm 27 to keep me strong.
Alam nyo, I went to the doctor thinking that she is an IVF specialist. My friend had IVF and went to this doctor. Ayoko na kasi mag try and ma-frustrate every month. I'm not a patient person. I just wanted to "get it over and done with". So, the whole time I was getting blood tests, I thought the doctor was just doing due diligence to ensure a successful IVF.
It was only now when I got pregnant that I found out that she is not an advocate of IVF because of all the wasted ovum, which to her is wasted life. She never does IVF pala. She just takes care of IVF patients because they are classified as high-risk. She told me that if my "problem" wasn't addressed, my IVF would have failed anyway.
How amazing is God? He knows me and He wants me to trust Him. All my life, I have trusted no one but myself. He gave me a problem that money could not quickly fix. It was something out of my control.
God wanted me to wait patiently on him.
I am crying as I type this entry on my Ipad. This journey, made me fall in love with The Lord. The whole time we were trying to conceive, there was nothing I could do but trust Him. It was not a matter of hard work or skill.
This life inside me now is a miracle. From two cells, billions will be formed. Only God can create something this great. I did not conceive out of my own skill and talent. This is all God. I am only a vessel. I am only an canvas for God to paint his miracles.
Please pray for me as I embark on this journey. If you are also trying, do message me. I will pray with you. I can also send a rosary with a prayer.
Lastly... Isn't it ironic that Life Started While I Was On Pause?
In Awe of God's Goodness,