I feel there is an invisible checklist...
While not explicitly written in any books, the questions people ask validate my theory of the existence of this invisible checklist.
I've always been a straight arrow/ good daughter/decent person. Because I have a type A personality, I generally do what is expected of me.
But as I grow older, I feel that society expects more from me. It never gets easy...
It's all In my head. Or is it?
1. First Smile
2. Learn how to talk
3. Learn how to walk
4. Go to school
5. Do well in school
7. Get a job
8. Be successful
9. Have a boyfriend
11. Be rich/ have enough money to support the people you love.
12. Get engaged
13. Buy a house/car
14. Get married
15. Get pregnant
17. Have more kids
18. Make sure kids do well in school
19. Stay (happily)married
20. Stay attractive
21. Make sure kids are successful
22. Stay healthy
23. Marry kids off
25.Live as long as you can
I feel this immense internal pressure to conform and check all the items in the list, just as I have been doing all my life.
But I'm starting to get tired...
I think I will avoid society and it's imaginary checklist for now...
Going down the rabbit hole,