Day 1: The Start of Nothingness

When I decided to quit my job after 10 happy years in the company, it wasn't because I was tired. I just had an epiphany.

I will be getting married in exactly 5 months time. To me, marriage is not just about being with the one you love 24/7. It's about being responsible for someone else's life. This is such a huge responsibility which I plan to take seriously.

To most people, this seems like a normal transition to adulthood. Not to me.

You see, I started working when I was 9 years old. I worked for our family business. Needless to say, I never got the chance to play. When I graduated from university, I worked for one of the country's top FMCG company right away. So, I never got the chance to be stupid, lazy or irresponsible.

I want to do all that before I get married. Just to get it out of my system.

My house is fully paid for. I have saved up enough to be unemployed for a number of years, assuming I stay single and frugal that is.

This opportunity to do nothing will only happen again once all my kids have graduated university, again assuming I have kids.

So I wish to take this opportunity to be selfish.

I want to wake up without a plan.

I want to not worry on a sunday night.

I want to have cocktails on a tuesday afternoon.

I want to have brunch on a thursday.

I want to take my laundry to the cleaners on a monday.

Simple things...

I never got to do any of these because I was HAPPILY working as a corporate slave.

Today is the first monday of my nothingness. I planned for a day of nothing but it still ended up to be a busy day! I didn't get the chance to go to the gym!

But  I promised myself that today is a day for FIRSTs!

It was my first time to join my fiance while he was attending to the repairs in our new home. I never had the time before. Infact, he attended to the repairs of my own home!

 I walked to our new home, coffee and sandwiches in tow. He smiled when he saw me.

Then, we went to my gown designer to drop off samples.  Before, i could only do this during weekends. After that, we went to the hotel to pay our deposit. I also got to lie down and stare at the sky for an hour! Amazing! I never did anything like this before.

To celebrate my first day of Nothingness, he took me to "Illustrado" in the old walled city of Manila.  Eating in this type restaurant is not a first for me, what is a first is me not having a ipad. I figured, now that I time, I don't need to multitask. I can eat dinner and chat up with my friends after dinner.


I'm very happy today. It is as if my heart slowed its pace to accommodate the change in my life.


Still On Pause,

L